too damn lazy

2008-03-17T23:29:00.002+08:00

whoa monday blues, sucks man, it made today feel damn extra long. lucky this week no trainings at all! and got friday off whoo. school's boring as hell. ah well, cant expect much eh, school what. slacked the whole hols away, out and around, the guys came over a few times blah blah. learnt 'with you' on acoustic, great song man, even better to play.
in this house, everything goes numb again. doesnt even feel like we're related, xept that we share a common thinking of 'i'm only here cuz i have to be'. like ps. simon said before, '.., you can buy a house, but you cant buy a home.' ah fuck it.
if you dont let it out someday, you're gonna regret it. thats what he's been telling himself. but its kinda hard huh, people and all, risking friendship and more. whats he gonna do man. well, he'll think of something, ..right?
nv bothered bout emails, but was pretty bored so just do some tickle quiz. quite cool uh, got what superpower quiz, then they say my hiden power is SuperSpeed. thaaanks ah, always knew i had it =x haha. alsooo, was talking, then found out lc also interested in those useless horoscope things too, quite cool eh. ah, school tmr. z.

2008-02-25T23:43:00.008+08:00

school! ..sucks. haha. morning busride isnt so bad anymore, can listen radio haha, havent tuned into morning radio for a loooong time. i swear the morning 987 people are damn funny and stupid, but not muttons anymore, now its dan and young or something, still okay ah. soo finally start studying stuff, had 3 lectures backtoback straight after morn assembly, can sleep i tell you -.- xept for geog, teacher's quite interesting somehow. oh and bio's a fucking killer there man. ended school, slept on busride home and missed my stop thanks to the boring talks zz. skipped guitar ensemble cca thing, had to wait till 430 and i, cant be bothered lol. got home then lazy go out already. l change the world tmr whoo.
why. damn man.

2008-02-24T21:54:00.004+08:00

oh man sundaaaay. morning service, gave the baptism picnic thing a miss, didnt bother >.> then go around buy stuff. pretty much spent the rest of the day at home cuz we couldnt decide where to go -.- damn man we gotta stop being so fucking lazy haha.
orientation has been awesome! ..but now we gotta start school *yawn* there goes my holidays.. i wonder how things are gonna be from now on, jc life seems so, weird o.o just not the same without the guys.. oh well. last day of orientation got cca signups, signed up for their guitar ensemble and canoing haha. from what i heard, trainings' pretty packed so doubt i'll be able to keep them both =/ i'll see how. what sucks is that its a 45mins bus ride down to tpjc campus wtf, whatsmore i lost my earpiece last week then nothing much to do in the bus yet zz. doesnt matter, just got a new one. subj combi's out and got what i chose whoo (geog, econs, bio, math) but physics needed amath and literally, an A in maths so couldnt take. ahhh tmr start schooool sian sian sian..
went onto msn not long ago, a message clarissa left offline for me just brightened up my boring sunday haha. yeah dont worry guys, no one's forgetting anyone. meet up soon yeah?

..oh brother, i gotta keep movin', i gotta keep pushin'..

2008-02-01T14:04:00.000+08:00

friday noon. nothing on today, no plans, none, zero, nothing, blank. actually loaded with errands, but too damn lazy -.- come to think bout it, not that bad, been long since i last slacked at home for a full day. stupid work and stuff. haha. glad that hangover's long gone, feeling's damn fucked up, dont wanna talk bout it. last night john's bday dinner at hooters was, okay la. food was ex, not very good. well at least theres people there. gave him the cue we got him from poolspot, actually damn nice la. but the small surprise didnt work, garner and ron met him and the rest on the way unexpectedly, then he saw. spoil la zz. anyways, we saw borat selling icecream along clarke quay hahaha. ran for last train home, farid kena left out awhile haha oh well. gah pool crave coming on again. so my room's fucking messy gotta clean up, gotta fix bro's comp, got errands later, then got chores now since no work no school. aww man..

2008-01-29T01:31:00.000+08:00

131am. no idea what to do now. guess ima just stay awake in case a spark goes off between the folks again. tension's reeaally high now, some happy cny.. wonder how we're gonna get through it. so bored doing nothing this night i actually edited this place. okayokay la, cant think of what to put around so just settled for, symbols =x ..you'll think of somethin.
ahh take back os and chose courses and stuff already. okay uh, very glad actually, reeeally praying to get in tpjc =S hope everyone goes where they wanna too. truth be told, just cant wait to start studying if get in.. no more adidas! kool shit man, from lastday on 6feb, then 2feb, then 26jan oh yeah. think gon visit those bastards next week or something, miss them and their stupidity alot. aw man, havent been guitarin for awhile now, no mood to. hope i feel like it soon, just havent been these past few days. chalet tmr at aranda club or something, damn lazy walk out of house =x pool pool feel like pooling now. can sia, if rush over to breakers in 10 mins, got 8mins left to pla.. nevermind. been stoning alot recently wtf.

2008-01-21T23:56:00.000+08:00

too damn lazy, to change anything haha, so dont expect any changes to template or replies to my dead tagboard, not that i'm still expecting any visitors.. been ages since the last post, dunno why now blogging again, probably just bored.
new year, new stuff, and thankfully same old friends -cant get any better than this! haha. quitting adidas come feb, been awesome there, but just too damn lazy =x anywaay, taking os results in 2 day's time! best of luck to fellow o-ers! damn nevrous myself.. church and all, been going great, but still gotta keep it from parents. shh, i dont need anymore shit from any of them. haiz, last session out there really showed how this family's on the verge of splitting up. actually hoping so, i know it'll be better for all. still guitaring, looking back i wonder why i never bothered learning all that music theory shit last time when rin told me to. z. ah nvm, now i learn.

miss studying man. pretty bold statement yes i know. but really miss it. i know everyone misses it too. really miss the times while studying for os with the guys, preparing revising xchanging tons of notes at airport and stuff. and how we study till sian then go walk around. and doing stupid things to take away boredom. and how everyone panics. hahhaaha.
guess enough for now uh. wanna crash soon, been a long day. still got work tmr, sian! come quick feb 2..

2007-05-20T21:40:00.000+08:00

hellooooo..? this thing still working? geez, almost forgot my password for this thing haha. oh well, not-dead. uh, okay i got nothing much to say. guess i'll actually try to blog sometime again if i'm ever free, though i know like, who would want to visit a dead place right? so much happening now, wonder where to start. guess its just part of change huh.

2007-01-24T20:35:00.000+08:00

Ugh. Got thrashed flat to the ground by yilei in my first try at scrabble lol, guess she wasnt kidding about being a pro at it. Needed a hershey's cookies&cream bar after that but couldnt find it. Darn the cold storagers, moved the candy shelf at the counter. z. There's mass pe tomorrow, we gonna dance! Woopee, I'm soo looking forward to it.

the two faces on the same coin? something like that anyway.

2007-01-22T20:34:00.000+08:00

Monday. Started the morning off with science tests. Wouldnt have been hard if i actually studied harder for this lol. Then a miracle happened. Not only did i pass my chinese test, i actually nailed a b3 for it. Yes, wtf..? Uh, didnt print my pictures, so, jonoh not happy. Stopped by the library with ronald for awhile before going home.

2007-01-21T21:57:00.000+08:00

Hahaha, woke up this morning and got little shocked when i saw the time: 11.05 ..then i realized it was sunday -.- oh well. Out to bugis, collected a few things. Walked around for a little while then went to lagoon for dinner. Damnit the food there's nice, quite bloated now. Gah, school tomorrow. Funny how the weekend passes by sooo fast, and omgtomorrowsciencedie.

2007-01-20T21:20:00.000+08:00

Lolol to air rifle breifing today. Woke up early (fuckyou ngiam, i want to sleep you know lol) to meet up with the guys then took a loong mrt ride to boonlay. Thank god, finally had time to read checkmate. Then took a bus to something wood secondary, cant remember. Short breifing, tried shooting. Trigger was so sensitive, just felt it with my finger and boom it went. Hard to aim yo, if we even get into the top 20 of the actual competition it'll be the joke of the year.

Ate a little at some nearby coffee shop before taking another long mrt ride back to the east. Walked back to school to wait for the others awhile. Np room was like a gambling den lolol, all were playing cards till like, 5? We were being lame so did drills with the plastic bottles and stuff, freaking dumb but ridiculously funny lol. Yeah, then the rest left so the last few of us did a some drills before going siglap mac for dinner. More funny shit happened there lol, then home.

2007-01-17T20:15:00.001+08:00

Hahahaha. Happy birthday suf (have fun spoofing, spoofster!) and wingtai (yesterday!)

Been very, very lazy and distracted lately so screwed up loads of things these past few weeks. School was the usual bore, same old same old. We got into a little mess with abraham during free periods, still have to see her tomorrow. Wtf. Had an unofficial training after school, shan't say much. Total boredom. Fncos needs loads more improvement, doing fine, but could be much better. Didnt have dinner with the guys. Lolol.

2007-01-06T11:58:00.000+08:00

YES! The freaking fair is over! No more drills for that parade, thank god. So like, back to school for everyone. Not much changes, to the school at least. Wonder how this year would be like huh. Lots of shit happening. Faith to everyone. Lost a feeling to blogging, probably cause its open to the public. The sky isnt clear i tell you.

2007-01-01T22:17:00.000+08:00

Okay so happay new year everybody. Fireworks at the esplanade werent as glamorous as i expected but oh well, still fireworks. Alot of funny shit happened there though hahaha. Then left the others at starbucks, ended up walking around lost with john and ernest for an hour? Creeepy cleaners they got at suntec >.> Met up with ros and slacked the night through at starbucks, then to east coast. Found lichin at mac in the morning and then finally walked home like a zombie.

2006-12-30T13:06:00.000+08:00

Blood, sweat and tears, together.

2006-12-27T00:07:00.000+08:00

brienne.
I FUCKING DON'T LOVE YOU LIKE I DID YESTERDAY. says:
its when the truth is brought to light.
its when the lies can never hide.
its when reality realms
its when jealousy overwhelms.

oh please dont kill me for this lool.

2006-12-26T23:10:00.000+08:00

It sucks when your sir pmses -.- and so tomorrow's torture starts at around 7? Damn. Bloody. Lazy. z.

2006-12-25T13:43:00.000+08:00

Bbq and countdown at yishun. Great food, gained at least 5 kg o.o Fucking funny and screwy lolol. Sorta tonned there too cuz lazy come back. And omgomg its christmas! Tis' the season to be jolly, falalalala lala lala.

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I WANT MY LAWYER.
I WANT MY MOMMY.
I WANT MY LAWYER'S MOMMY.

2006-12-23T21:19:00.000+08:00

Bags and shoes. And thank you gerald for leading us to a gay bag shop lol. Still need to get a few more things and i'm running out of time. zz.

2006-12-22T18:05:00.000+08:00

Carpark duty today. Very lazy now. We all are.

-end of story-

2006-12-18T17:28:00.000+08:00

Phew, just woke up. Thought i didnt have to sleep but bleh, guess not. Ugh, garner's house last night. So.. thats that. Fully booked for the rest of this holiday to do pointless things. Oh how i caaant wait to go back to school.

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Busted = awesomeness. And and the guy not playing guitar, matt, looks and sounds like boo guan zhi loool.

2006-12-15T12:45:00.000+08:00

When the going gets tough, what, the weak run for the hills? Fuck you no.

2006-12-14T23:39:00.000+08:00

Books bought with marcus and ronald. Rained as i stepped out of the house, how great lol. Damn you two, black's a sanctuary colour kay, dont diss it >.>

2006-12-14T12:20:00.000+08:00

Gah. Checkmate wasnt in! Zzzz.

2006-12-12T23:14:00.000+08:00

School for sana forms. Libraray. Booooks. Tomorrow again for my checkmate, hopefully. Been waiting for a couple of weeks?

Oh, and a certain strawberry was waiting for his beloved grape just now. kekeke.

2006-12-09T14:27:00.000+08:00

am i still breathing?

2006-12-08T21:45:00.000+08:00

Sentosa. Owned.

2006-12-06T21:11:00.000+08:00

Omg so fucking tired but nevermind, practically forcing myself to blog. Hard time in the morning waking up again, np just had to start so early, at 8.30 zz. Well, late by a little anyway. Footdrills for a few hours is it? Yeah, then a little relax time before lunch. After that was pretty much just slacking and camp planning till around 4 where the np stayed in room to play uno. Met rin, marcus and ronald then went katong. Marcus and ron did a little daytona before we pooled a little. Then i left first and headed to library again.

2006-12-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

Show me how defenceless you really are.

2006-12-04T13:39:00.000+08:00

Think about the love inside the strength of heart.

2006-12-03T01:53:00.000+08:00

Alright, was cooped up at home the whole day so i've got nothing alright. Z. Parents pms'd again as usual so it'll take a couple of days before i can sneak out again, not that easy okay lol.

People people. Its not what you've done, its what you didn't do.

2006-12-01T21:49:00.000+08:00

From day one i talked about getting out, but not forgetting about, how my worst fears are letting out. He said, 'why put a new address, on the same old loneliness when breathing just passes the time, until we all just get old and die.' Now talking's just a waste of breath, and living's just a waste of death! And why put a new address, on the same old loneliness. And this is you and me, and me and you, until we've got nothing left!

Went to ernest's there just now with rin and ernest himself. Stayed in the gym at first, did some stupid shit. Went to swim after that, more stupid shit. Then played table tennis lol. Never knew i know how to play o.o miserably, i might add. So, got tired at around 6 and came home lonely-ly, while someone was busy being loveydovey and left me talking to myself >.>

2006-11-30T00:03:00.000+08:00

Gah yesterday. Spent the morning doing nothing. Almost half the afternoon doing nothing. Evening went bugis then meet cousins at sakae. And now i'm home doing nothing. Next day still got sana course, 9 till 5 at sengkang? Total. Boredom.

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Okay so blogger got problems.

My. Fucking. God. Sana has to be the worst lecture ever if it werent just for half a day. I felt like a retard dozing off during it, my head bobbing up and down lolol. Still got assignment to offically get that piece of metal, damn waste of time. Uh, dinner'd at kfc then came home. Took a step in, switched on the lights, then was called to go out again, wtf. So now, i'm here tired, bored, lazy and, tired.

2006-11-28T20:09:00.000+08:00

Woke up early to check some stupid shit, some particular genius agreed to it lol. Kfc, then to east coast with marcus deciding to pool abit. Turns out we cant. So we skated. Saw ncc road march on the way, headed back to rink, 'balcony' then HOME.

Letting out the noise inside of me. Every window pane is shattering. Cutting up my words before i speak. This is how it feels to not believe.

2006-11-27T02:40:00.000+08:00

INDIGO
will to survive
hatred
your thoughts
delusions
obsolescent
well, what if?
eyes
fire in the rain
everybody's pain
echo
lights
BACK OFF, I'LL TAKE YOU ON.
HEADSTRONG, TO TAKE ON ANYONE.

2006-11-26T16:44:00.000+08:00

So yesterday, went down to the library. Marcus and garner's plans were messed up so they went too. They skated there while i had to walk >.> then at about 4, hk came. Decided to play pool so we strolled to east coast, stopping by this playground workout station thing, played there like kids for awhile lol. So its pool till 7 or something, then subway for dinner.

And my brother's birthday's today. Dad was being nice this morning, he never was. Not surprising, he was born bias. Dinner later with them, oh how i caaan't wait.

2006-11-23T20:52:00.000+08:00

Np in the morning, had a hard time waking up lol. Long tiring walk before river crossing, and the taste of singapore's rivers was fantastic. Went back to school wet and smelly, left for siglap mac with, okay all the np people in the same way. Supposed to go marine parade library after that, but ended up at parkway playing pool with ernest, aaron and priscilla. I swear, she missed at least 5 fool-proofed shots haha. 2 hours gone. Walked to marine parade library look for books? Got two, a touching novel about race and prejudice, fighting for what you believe, sorta ghetto-ish so its cool. The other's a thriller about who-knows-what, about special powers or something lol. Now very very tired, lying in bed reading and watching time fly pass.

2006-11-22T22:07:00.000+08:00

Skated. Thats all there is to it. Then it rained at ecp. Skated in the rain all the way from lagoon to the rink, totally drenched lol. To stairs, the 'balcony', and skate somemore. Home.

Np tomorrow, river crossing and rafting? Gonna be so boring. Oh well, no better way to waste a perfectly free day away.

2006-11-19T21:40:00.000+08:00

Haha. Just discovered something totally, awesome. Apparently, i just realised that for every sentence i read, images of that form in my mind, clearly. Like i'm in the story. Okay is it just me, or does that happen to everybody @.@ lol, guess thats the same way i write my crappy essays. Anyway, found two books on the reading list while out just now with suf and rin, 'Seventeen' and 'Tangerine', both of which are by Colin Cheong, local writer. Seems boring at first glance but actually pretty interesting inside. Lol. Book rush, i feel like taking up reading for a past-time. Omg, i'm getting into reading. Screw'd.

There's more than what meets the eye.

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Done with 'Seventeen'. Touching. Very.

2006-11-19T15:27:00.000+08:00

what if i wanted you here right nowwwwww.
would you fall in the fire? burn me down.

2006-11-18T13:56:00.000+08:00

Pk course finally ended yesterday. Two days seemed like an eternity lol. Oh well, earned two pieces of metal at least. Uh. Sec2s came home second in the heritage thing according to huimei. Nice job the four of you, drinks on me next training or something. Lol.

2006-11-16T21:18:00.000+08:00

Whoa. Just came back from home team academy at boon lay and i'm totally beat. Still got test on police knowledge tomorrow. Hell. Bleh, at least i know i'll pass, we all will. Diamond badge here i come! Set off from home bloody early this morning, bloody sleepy. Bus ride supposed to be extra long for nap time, heard george bush was supposed to own pie today? Okay dunno. Police knowledge course daamn long and boring. One of the worst lectures i've ever been to.

2006-11-14T20:33:00.000+08:00

Slacky slackay day today. Out in the morning to expo. Then found out the fashion show thing starts at noon, lazy wait so went orchard with suf, rin and lyana. Catching. Slacked. To tm by a very very long bus ride, slept like damn peacefully? Hard to believe, suf was around >.> There, slack somemore at the playground. Bubbelteh and home not-so-sweet home.

Oh, and bds won the fashion show thing. Greaaat, now they have more to whine about at the school reopening assembly. Zzzz.

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Your words, bury me, of what i used to be.
I cant erase all those things i've seen.
Your heart, smothers me, and now its hard to breathe.
I cant erase all my memories.

Fuck. Wish i'm blind and invisible.

2006-11-12T02:53:00.000+08:00

Dont turn away, dont give in to the dark. Dont try to hide, though theyre screaming your name. Dont close your eyes, god knows what lies behind. Dont turn out the lights, never sleep never die.

Fallen angels at my feet. Whispered voices at my ear. Death before my eyes, lying next to me i fear. She beckons me, shall i give in? Upon my end i shall begin. Forsaking all I've fallen for, i rise to meet the end.

2006-11-10T20:30:00.000+08:00

Yeah, okay. So, went out skate today. Planned to go ecp, hong finally decided to turn up. Played ice-and-melt on skates and lololol. Then it rained. Like wtf. So marcus, ronald, suf, garner, sendj and i went to skate up at the multistorey carpark. Tried out slides and stuff. Fell down hard and raw so rested. Since it was already so late, no point going ecp. Me and suf left for home while the rest set off for ronald's parents' bbq.

You need to score 30 and below to be an angel.
1. Smoked before (im not stupid.)
2. Drunk alcohol before
3. Slept with someone of the opposite sex
4. Slept with someone of the same sex
5. Gotten into any fights
6. Kissed someone of the opposite sex
7. Kissed someone of the same sex
8. Had someone in your room of the opposite sex
9. Scolded vulgarities
10. Bought porn
11. Take drugs before medicine
12. Hate going to the doctor's
13. Lied to your parents
14. Lied to a friend
15. Snuck out of the house
16. Done something illegal
17. Cut yourself
18. Hurt someone
19. Wished someone to die (still do, fuckyoudad)
20. Seen someone die
21. Missed curfew
22. Stayed up all night
23. Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
24. Been to a therapis
25. Been to a rehab
26. Dyed your hair
27. Received a ticket
28. Been in a wreck
29. Been to a club
30. Been to a bar
31. Been to a wild party
32. Seen the Mardi Gras
33. Had a fight
34. Had a spring break in Florida
35. Sniffed anything
36. Wore black nail polish
37. Wore wristbands
39. Wore black eyeliner
40. Own a 50 cent CD
41. Hugged someone of the opposite sex
42. Hugged someone of the same sex
43. Gone out with someone of the same sex
44. Gone out with someone of the opposite sex
45. Stole something
46. Been too drunk to remember anything
47. Blacked out
48. Fainted
49. Had a crush on your neighbour
50. Had someone else snuck into your room
51. Snuck into someone else's room
52. Had a crush on someone of the same sex
53. Had gone and watched movies with friends
54. Dry humped someone
55. Been called a slut
56. Called someone a slut
57. Installed speakers in your car
58. Broke a mirror
59. Showered at someone of the opposite sex's house
60. Brushed your teeth with someone else's brush
61. Consider Mac, Dre, e40 or Mistah Fab your favorite rapper
62. Seen an R rated movie in theaters
63. Gone out with friends to the mall
64. Skipped school
65. Had an eating disorder
66. Had hurt yourself before
67. Gone to court
68. Walked out of a restaurant without paying
69. Caught something on fire
70. Lied about your age
71. Owned an apartment
72. Cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend
73. Cheated with someone
74. Got in trouble with the police
75. Talked to a stranger
76. Hugged a stranger
77. Kissed a stranger
78. Rode in the car with a stranger
79. Been sexually harassed
80. Been verbally harassed
81. Met face to face with someone you met online
82. Stayed online for 12 hours straight
83. Talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
84. Watched TV for 12 hours straight
85. Been to a fair
86. Been called a bad influence
87. Cursed
88. Prank called someone
89. Laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex
90. Cheated on a test
91. Cheated on homework
92. Held hands with someone of the opposite sex
93. Wanted to be dead
94. Cut yourself before
95. Hate yourself
96. Had a crush on someone 10 years older than you
97. *NOT VALID*
98. Worn eyeliner
99. Skinny dipped
100. Laughed at someone who was seriously hurt

46. Wtf? I swear i'm more angelic than this thing proves. Bleh who cares, im better than suf and rin =D

2006-11-09T19:12:00.000+08:00

Alrighttt. So, today's last day of bridging, finally. Sat in class do my essay while khor's teaching. 3c and 3e joined for english, thats when i finished the essay i spent the whole morning doing. Uh. Stayed in 2d play cards with marcus, ronald, ernest for awhile before garner came. Then got bored and stopped, did some completely stupid shit lolol. Went outside jump over each other, shoe-war(wtf?) and more. Went to kfc with marcus and ronald then 13'd home.

Die for anyone, what have i become?
So would you like that?

2006-11-08T13:30:00.000+08:00

Like finally, skin changed. Not exactly how i pictured the image to be cg'd, but dont wanna trouble rin, thanks man. Bleh, didnt go school. Whats the point, no science and going for math in my class is practically pointless. So, everyone's out and im stuck at home doing nothing. Body's aching. Mind's blanking. What else can i do but waste today away.

2006-11-07T23:23:00.000+08:00

Gah. Whole morning's spoilt. Stayed in school played cards and slacked. Went simpang for an early lunch before rushing back for poa. Sad sad marcus, lectured by dickson. Then, went home to put on a small act before leaving house at 3? Comps were owned by four of my brother's dweeby friends so left early. Made my way to marina square with ronald to meet up with rin, suf, clarissa and april. Then to tm catch death note. Not bad; cunning, sly and pretty clevery. Omg pootootoo chips. And home baby.

2006-11-04T09:11:00.000+08:00

Oh god. So bloody lazy.

So got results yesterday. Didnt do really well but thank god i made it. Went with mao, suf, marcus and ronald to get mao's obs checkup thing done. Then, seperated deciding to meet up later to skate except for mao. Skated around the rooftop garden thing till tired like fuck. Took off skates and did some yoga shit haha, cartwheels, somersaults, handstands. Total lol. Garner came halfway and wtf, who could have guessed he was an ex-gymnast. He went around doing cartwheels and kickflips and shit O.O

Played something after that, roller-rugby or something. Suf and marcus crashed straight into the bushes while speeding LOL. Splinters all over, ouch. Skated somemore till i was totally burned out, couldnt join them for a little crocodile and ice-and-melt cuz i was about to die lol. Came home accompanied by massive bruises and a couple of scars and burns i didnt notice. Crashed into bed with msn still on at 9 and sleepwalked to off it.

2006-11-02T21:14:00.000+08:00

Okayokay so its bridging today, again. Ended way early, about 10. Stayed in class played cards, games. Heart attack was fun wtf, i love hitting lol. Left after waiting for nothing cuz thought had np stuff to do. Then went with marcus to garner's house take skates. I've got to have one of those garden swings.

Skated around at marcus's house there. Played 'roller-hockey', bloody tiring but yeah, it was fun. Then then, we started to get bored so played loads of silly games like cone tossing, cone war, hide-the-cones, and more. We had these cones for slalom you see. OH. AND I CAN CRAZY \m/ YEAAAAH. Not too glamorous, but a little yes lol. Left at about 6.45 shagged and feeling woozy @.@

Without the mask, where will you hide? Can't find yourself. Lost in your lies.

2006-10-30T20:04:00.000+08:00

i feel snakey today lol. SSssSssSsSsSsss.

Bridging classes. Came to school at 7.20 even though my first lesson starts officially at 10.30 lol. Supposed to meet meet some sec2s and collect forms, or do some art thing, make black plastic roses i think. Then, didnt. Went chem class instead and slacked.
To orchard after school; suf, rin, weilie, marcus, ernest, mos, sendj. Ate at kfc and did hide and seek around taka. Just happened to fall in love with this pair of vans shoes, crail; white with black lining. Fucking nice for something simple. Then blah blah. Home and planning to plant myself in this seat for another hundred hours.

Cursed with a blessing. Gah, parents. I'm not even sure mine are classified under that term.

2006-10-28T10:47:00.000+08:00

Lolol. Hair's cut. At first glance i looked like a rin. Then no, not. Wasnt feeling well yesterday, couldnt go skate if possible or anywhere else in fact.

Daaaamn, this is such a dickpost.

2006-10-26T21:13:00.000+08:00

So, uhh uhhhhh, last day of school, for the not-sec3s. Two more weeks damnit zz. Maths and science somemore, total boredom. Spent half of the day playing cards in school. Other half forgotten. Who cares lol. Then, went to np room with mao clear stock and stuff. Daaamn lazy count but had to do it. So, done and done. Took bus back with ernest and dropped by marcus house to pass him the image to scan for my blogskin. Rin's having trouble cg-ing it and sorrray. I want my new skin argh, hopefully by this weekend. Rin can right? Oh god please say yes. z.

2006-10-25T21:38:00.000+08:00

Pants.

2006-10-24T22:37:00.000+08:00

Uhh, today was enjoyable? Cant believe it either lol, especially the fact that my day was spent with my family. Oh well. Left at about 11 this morning and headed to yishun. Mother said there was a small reunion. Ended up one whole group of i-dont-know people turned up wtflol.

Reached and gorged into the many dishes grandma prepared straight away. I swear, i'd give her cooking a 20 on scale. Then loads of things in the afternoon, card games and gambling, fooling around with cousins and, more. Brother was daamn obsessed with this puppy my aunt has lol, follow around like he's the dog lolol. Bubblegum wtf, stuffed like 6 pieces in my mouth to blow a huge tough one lolllll. Alright, made my point, today was fun for some reason. Then dinner, feasted on a whole new variety she spent the afternoon preparing \m/ aaaand, home sweet home.

Bloody full now. Burp. School tomorrow wtf.

2006-10-23T19:27:00.000+08:00

Come with me. Let me walk you through the world that i currently stay in. You can take a look around and tell me if i'm mistaken. You can even talk to everybody that i live with. Maybe you can tell me why everybody's so distant. Is it me or maybe, when i look around daily, i don't even know the people i can put my trust in lately. People that i used to hang with, now they're acting so different. I'm still the same person, why doesn't anybody listen. Can somebody please just explain to me. What happened to the way that we always said we'd be. Right now i dont know why i push through the pain that i got through. And i'm losing hope.

Deafening voices. That frequency inside my head, that says; you're going at it the hard way. I focus, get everything inside out of my brain, that claims; i'm going at it the hard way.

2006-10-22T23:19:00.000+08:00

total. blankage.

2006-10-20T23:26:00.000+08:00

Nco-only training in the morning, pretty much average. Kfc. Daaaamn tired, last night slept early but not well though, heeavy thoughts. Wanted to go ecp or somewhere but came home and crashed straight away lol. Sorry guys had to ps. Woke up after dinner time and now im bored. Very boreded.

2006-10-19T23:42:00.000+08:00

Whoawhoawhoa. Just came back not too long ago from bedok mac and i'm totally beat from all the thinking we did. Well, school as usual, so relaxed today, even abraham wasnt bitchy. 3c got into a little trouble though, saded. Went to bedok interchange mac with rin and suf. Met up with ernest, john, shamyn, dennis, jingying there, then got to work. Puuunani.

Changed my structure lol, from a bed/trampoline to a rope-swinging thing, its so fun damnit. Then then, yeah, do the pioneering shit till 5+ when suf, rin and shamyn decided to take off. At 7, lichin and shamyn came and came back to continue the work. And then, the rest left when me, john, ernest and lichin started to get bored. Cropped up a retarded living room, tortoises with feelers, autistic children, etc. Lol. Left at 1030. And yes, we finally finished discussing all the pioneering stuff.

Screwed. Np starts at 9 tomorrow. And im not done polishing boots and my proposal's half blank.

2006-10-18T20:45:00.000+08:00

hey kid, you'll never live this down.

School. Had some talk for morning ir, reading programme in the library, another teenage talk for assembly, boring shit. Went around np room with ernest, mao, john, ros, lichin and yaoyong, briefed sec2s a little, then got to work on pioneering. And how cool is this, all our groups can combine structures and make a playground lolol. While rin's feeling dragonny (yeah, wtf), im.. being one with the force. Hell what that is. Feeling apologetic and such, sad for others and stuff.

2006-10-17T22:09:00.000+08:00

Right so, school was a bore. Growing with confidence thing, basically another typical healthcare talk. Wanted to go skate straight after school, then got caught up in some np pioneering stuff. Zz.

Went kfc eat first before heading down to ecp with ronald, marcus and garner. Practiced powerslide, still slides, but no improvements lol. Lazy. I did, however, try mohawk (or moehog) and who knew, i did it. Its just turning from front to back while moving -.- easier said than done though. Well, back at 8. Walked in, dad didnt realize i came back after he did, dumb fag lol.

2006-10-16T19:35:00.000+08:00

Sailing or flying?

Had this innovation workshop. Hopes crushed, it was boring lol, wasted away 9 hours of my life. Some ideas at the red dot museum were good though, rather interesting, stuff we'd never think of. There's school tomorrow, long day.

a picture speaks a thousand words.

2006-10-16T00:22:00.000+08:00

Daaamn, spent almost the whole day at home today. Way bored. There's the leadership course tomorrow, or rather later today. Cant go cuz of some art field trip to red dot museum. zz. Hell where that is. At least the dnt people going too, hope it wont be as boring as i expect. I wanna skate now damnit.

2006-10-15T01:33:00.000+08:00

Alrighttt new skin, rin's hard work lol. Yes i know the <- gradient blocks are sticking to the first words. But nevermind, style. Out to century square then skate a little today with marcus, targeted to finally get powerslide right by today. And i nailed it right then and there lol, now just got to be smooth and slide further >.> Cant wait till the next skate session.

2006-10-14T10:54:00.000+08:00

Name 25 people at the top of your head. [no order]
1.rin
2.marcus
3.suf
4.amos
5.waikit
6.ronald
7.joy
8.april
9.mao
10.jiahui
11.kewei
12.claire
13.bert
14.brandon
15.lichin
16.ryan chen
17.shahnaz
18.ros
19.ernest
20.dennis
21.shamyn
22.kajie
23.alvin sendj
24.hiong kwoon
25.fkfkwho, cant think! jordan

what is an inside joke with #7(joy)
suibee.

what about #22?(kajie)
nipple victim, watchout xD

would you go out with #12?(claire)
LOL. ( ' ')( ..)

whats one word that describes #5(waikit)
luo suo w00t naggy

would #4 look good with #25?(amos, jordan)
not bad, both equally gay. no wait, amos's worse.

would u go out with #19?(ernest)
helll noo. he'd bomb me with np stuff and i'd ps him on the way.

when is #11's birthday(kewei)
no idea.

would you make out with #11?(kewei)
lol. no.

are #3 and #18 BEST friends?(suf, ros)
do they know each other?

have you ever liked #21(shamyn)
HELL NO.

have you ever liked #13(bert)
HE'S MINE, JAC. D=<>.>

what song does #14 relate to?(brandon)
any effing loud techno song.

what movie could #24 be in?(hiong kwoon)
some goth movie, shes emo man. scaary.

what famous person does/should #7 meet?(joy)
christina aguilera. oh yeah, she wants it.

what do you think of #10?(jiahui)
well from what i hear, ROAR. or purpur.

would you make out with #1?(rin)
WTF. EW. NO.

what about #17(shahnaz)
stick dropped in mud.

an inside joke with #11?(kewei)
dont remember? lol.

have you ever liked #8?(april)
noooo.

could you live without #20?(dennis)
yeah. some things would be missing though, sad.

would #13 make a good couple with #16?(bert, ryan)
lol. yes? though jac'll kill ryan, but thats beside the point.

what about #23 and #5?(send, waikit)
send'll die of his nagging lol.

whats a random fact about#6(ronald)
face ever-red as a strawberry.

ever had a crush on #5(waikit)
wow. right.

or#25?(jordan)
never. no childhooder. lolol.

has #4 ever liked you?(amos)
i'd snash whatever's left of his balls if he turns gay on me.

what about #19(ernest)
same.

one word for number #1(rin)
retarded

do you know anyone that likes #24?(hiong kwoon)
sec4 gerald, card magician and ex-np seniorr.

is #3 your friend?(suf)
lol who wants him as a friend. hes a bro.

where do you see #21 in 20 years?(shamyn)
lol, magazine editor manager or something.

what about #22(kajie)
socccer-er.

would you ever make out with #2?(marcus)
i'd get cholesterol lolol. jk, like you always do.

have you ever made out with#14(brandon)
paintbrush wouldn't be happy. and no, of course not.

what# can you see yourself most with?
bleh, about 15/25 from the list.

what # should #11 go out with?(kewei)
i have absolutely no idea.

The rules are simple:
1. Put your music player
on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the
question even if it doesn't make sense.
NO
CHEATING! Some of the answers I got were
strange. Others, downright funny! Let me know
what happens with yours.

1. How are you feeling today?
-before the dawn (wtf)

2. Will you get far in life?
-for you

3. How do your friends see you?
-fields of innocence

4.Will you get married?
-7 minutes in heaven

5. What is your best friend's theme song?
-side of a bullet

6. What is the story of your life?
-youth of the nation

7. What was high school like?
-top of the world

8. How can you get ahead in life?
-i write sins not tragedies.

9. What is the best thing about your friends?
-ocean avenue

10. What is today going to be like?
-far away (ecp isnt far lol)

11. What is in store for the weekend?
-everybody's fool

12. What song describes you?
-so cold (very wrong >.>)

13.To describe your grandparents?
-I caught fire (in your eyes)

14. How is your life going?
-where is your boy tonight?

15. What song will they play at your funeral?
-let you go

16. How does the world see you?
-taking over me

17. Will you have a happy life?
-carve your heart out

18. What do your friends really think of you?
-meet you there

19. Do people secretly lust after you?
-we are godzilla, you are japan

20. How can I make myself happy?
-way away

2006-10-13T21:05:00.000+08:00

And all, i had, was a memory of what was.
So let's, pretend, it never mattered to us.
I hope this message finds you well.
Never thought i'd live to tell,
what's a dream and what is real,
the way i really feel.

pens and needles;

2006-10-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

I'm in love with electric and air guitar solos lol. Not to say i didnt like it before, the canon-in-d video marcus showed me just inspired me. So fucking awesome. Lol. Someone persuade me to get an air guitar and learn please.

End of exams w00t. FREEEDOM. Did my art, just simply sweet. Colour scheme worked out nicely as i hoped. Now just hope my other papers would turn out okay as well, i studied damnit. Went ecp skate after that, suf, ronald, rin, marcus, weilie, amos, brandon and mao. Nothing much to say, always great times out with them lol. Jason and faiz came soon after with another two friends of theirs. And we went seperate ways soon after. We left at about 6. Then mao left, followed by rin. The rest of us went to parkway's kbox. Didnt want to sing, and i was almost getting late for dinner. Went in for ten minutes and left.

Came back from dinner with some relatives that i never knew? Left while my parents are still whining over there lol. Bloody dramatists.

2006-10-10T16:47:00.000+08:00

lol. lolol to what this and all of that was. lolol.

2006-10-08T21:03:00.000+08:00

i could have been a loser kid, and ran away and hid.

god, three short posts just made up two days. cooool.

2006-10-07T21:45:00.000+08:00

do you feel the messages? okay maybe im just turning mental.

2006-10-07T02:14:00.001+08:00

Ugh. Just woke up with a splitting headache, again. Ugh. This sucks. Ugh. Almost nobody's online.

Ugh.

2006-10-05T20:21:00.000+08:00

chinese is damn omfg. passages were hard, had absolutely no idea how to do it, wrote crap. studying paid off though, knew like 4/5 of the tian xie han zi thing. ronald was practically hibernating during the paper lol, i watch him stay lying on the table like, half the time?
fucking painful.
skated out to study at east coast mac with marcus, ronald, suf and alifi. not too bad, managed to study quite a bit. then went back about, 6.30. ronald left his phone by the cats we saw lol. sad, he had to rush back and get it.

tomorrow's math, everyone's most feared paper. good luck to anyone and everyone alright.

small simple safe price. rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets. this is not a small cut that scabs and dries and flakes and heals. and i am not afraid to die. im not afraid to bleed and fuck and fight. i want the pain of payment. whats left but a section of pigmy sized cuts, much like the slew of a thousand unwanted fucks. would you be my little cut? would you be my thousand fucks? and make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid, to fill and spill over and under my thoughts. my sad sorry selfish cryout to the cutter. im cutting trying to picture your black broken heart. love is not like anything, especially a fucking knife!

2006-10-04T20:44:00.000+08:00

To the many times knives scrape through ice and eyes. For every twelve shards that fall off as a memory to be forgiven. The light has never wanted me. Frozen to be melted once again. Each drop made to cast yet another shadow on the world. She was stabbed time and time again. Shackled to the ground, draining each thought till the glass is empty. Point taken. Point perception.

2006-10-04T16:49:00.000+08:00

Alright so today was the first eoy day. First paper was english and i guess i did somewhat well, had loads to write lol. Then ss, used up three papers without leaving lines and small handwriting O.O Damn surprised i can write so much, probably all crap but hell, who cares, i did my part. Cme, well, no one cares. Really. Went to east point after school with suf and rin. I needed to get this chinese e-dictionary thing and rin had to get his *ahem* lolol. Sooo, i'm home.
i guessed we never really moved on.
And mao tells me he cant stop listening to hinder-lips of an angel? Greaaat. Now i'm listening to it. And, zomgwhoa.

2006-10-02T17:53:00.000+08:00

you know, you've got everybody fooled.
without the mask,
where will you hide.
cant find yourself,
lost in your lies.
and somehow you got everybody fooled.
everything works when you're silenced.
somehow now, you're everybody's fool.

2006-10-01T23:02:00.000+08:00

2006-10-01T11:53:00.000+08:00

Lol to yesterday. Left my house at 2 with the sky pouring, badly. So i went to meet marcus first then we made our way to airport. Suf came soon after. Walking towards the staff canteen, we saw police so me and suf purposely act suspicious, carry our bag like some dumb terrorist lolol. Ronald came after that. Went to the huge balcony thing, nice view, damn windy and peaceful.
might as well
We studied, lol, three hours. Had dinner there then decided to go for the lantern festival thing at temasek. Did i mention marcus fell while he was trying to pull off some stunt when walking towards mrt? LOL. Was like, stomach first to the railing. Inside mrt, ronald did some hellomoto sound and made a lady embarrassed haha.
forget
Played some games there like some little children. Quite alot of people from our school were there. Met up with weilie and rin. After awhile, went to the playground nearby. Played blind mice damn funny. Poor weilie took like a half hour, and that half hour wasnt pretty. Suf kept on disturbing him lol. We left at around 10, marcus's mother sent me and ronald home, thanks.
it.
All of us were in black xD

2006-09-29T18:00:00.000+08:00

So like, happy birthday melissa.

Whoa end of the week. Didnt have np today so came home rather early. Dont know whether to be glad or not, miss messing with the sec2s lol. Suf got his contacts, and so he says grey? I dont know, i see brown. Bleh whatever it is, he looks freaky now, not to say he wasnt before but, yeah.
its not as if
Floorball for pe. Screw'd it. I tried to intercept every ball but shot most to nowhere when i get it lolol. Sorry guys, first reaction. Bio, daamn boring. After that wanted to go meet up with marcus, ronald, suf and rin, or ernest and john at parkway, but somehow all went home so like, wtf.
you dont know
Went to library with garner and sid, 3a and 3b people were there studying. Watching them study is like so stress. So i left with garner after trying to study with them for ten minutes. Lol. Felt so stupid compared to them, i was studying some loser sub-bio test paper while i watch them do all the math and stuff. Went home then.
its all for you.
Long post for a short day. Wow.

2006-09-28T22:13:00.000+08:00

Loool i feel apologetic and sorry to almost everyone.
Forgive me if i'm not myself lately.

Well, who would know.

2006-09-26T21:24:00.000+08:00

But how can i try to explain. Your story never seems to stay the same. You're out of touch and i'm out of time. Just talk to me awhile, and joke about the things we used to see. Its so hard for me to smile. I've never felt so alone. After all of this there's so much left to lose. And i've taken pieces home. I promise you I never meant to.

But how can i complain, when everybody seems to know my name. You're out of luck and i'm out of line. Its such a selfish compromise, self-indulgent useless bunch of lies. I never thought you would believe. Hold me now don't wake me up. Pull me down then back up. All again for all to see. Low down whisper and guilty stare. Your stangnant beauty makes me glare. Silly games in the sun.

Loving you could be so easy.
Loving you could be so great.
Maybe a change would keep me high.
Stop me thinking and wondering why.

why - busted

Radioblogclub's a bitch, doesnt have this song. Lol. Ask me for it.

2006-09-26T20:25:00.000+08:00

So was like, average day. Suf didnt come school, we all know why lol. I'll get you mao. Wet toilet paper, face, splat. Just you wait lolol. Art was super boring today. And i'm so screwed. Prep work's due tomorrow and i'm only half done, not too well too i might add.

After art, went to 3rd floor outside np room wait for fnn people. We were like, doing hangman, riddles and quizzes. Hanbin was being dumb, come up with stupid reasons to get to the answer haha. Hes probably pondering about the read-your-mind one right now. 13'd home with marcus.

Linkin park. They've been with my heart, mind and soul for four years now. My all-time favourite band. Yeah, all their songs, even the underground stuff they do thats not released. So for those who dont know, linkinpark's nu-metal. Rock+rap+shouting+metal. No, not all of it is loud, and theyre not like black metal so dont say its all headbanger material. Theyre just one of a kind.

All these thoughts they make no sense.
I found bliss in ignorance.
Nothing seems to go away.
Over and over again.

2006-09-25T20:23:00.000+08:00

Mooondaay. Woke up with fuzzy hair looking as if i got a shock, so thought i'd come to school without wax and stuff. Then hair dropped like some mushroom lol. Oh well.

Tried hard to study in class, not too bad. Dont intend to fail maths again, just hope all my studying wont go to waste. And I know you guys are going all 'zao study so hard in the end also fail what, no use.' I know you're doing it, you bastrds.. LOL.

Anyway, went east point to get a cup of sago, then come back school. I know, pointless lol. I feel my stupidity coming back =] and then bio, paid attention, again. Chinkwee sang into miss sim's mic during class, and guess what; it came out like, static and buzzzzzz rofl.

Wanted to do art after that but then again, date due extended, so screw it. Apparently, shahnaz begged mrs jonoh for it or something. Did some np stuff with ros, john and ernest for awhile, lots picked were like, damn coincidental lol. Wanted to go parkway, then john didnt want to, so didnt. Homewhoa.

2006-09-24T14:37:00.000+08:00

Mary belongs, to the words of a song. I tried to be strong for her, tried not to be wrong for her. But she will not wait for me anymore, anymore. Why did i say all those things before? I was sure.

She is the one, but i have a purpose. She is the one, and i have to fight this. She is the one, villain i cant knock down.

I see your face with every punch i take, and every bone i break, its all for you. And my worst pains are words i cannot say. Still i will always, fight on for you.

Mary's alive, in the bright new york sky. The city lights shine for her, above them i cry for her. Everything's small on the ground below, down below. What if i fall then where would i go? Would she know?

She is the one, all that i wanted. She is the one, and i will be haunted. She is the one, this gift is my curse for now.

I see your face with every punch i take, and every bone i break, its all for you. And my worst pains are words i cannot say. Still i will always, fight on for you.

gifts and curses - yellowcard

2006-09-23T03:35:00.000+08:00

2006-09-21T20:16:00.000+08:00

I swear, i'd rather be all alone.
having parents who're better off dead.
cant find yourself.
YOU HEAR THAT BITCHES? I THINK YOU GUYS ARE BETTER OFF DEAD. AND I'M YOUR SON.
lolol..

2006-09-19T18:55:00.000+08:00

Tuesdays still suck as usual, seven straight periods of boredom. Well, at least we still have fun at the back of the class. The thing about beena and her tatooed monster ass is pretty funny lolol, poor suf's to blame.

So like, art after school. Did nothing but discuss exam stuff. OMFG this term's topics are so cool, I've chosen 'Forgotten'; sorta like about memories, the past, and emo shit. Yep, time to get into the emo spirit again and, i dont know, 'be one with art' lol. Okay, bullshit >.> As expected, jonoh screamed and bitch today. Was in the classroom beside artroom, she shouted like some demon to the sec4s, fking scary if its in your face.

Waited for fnn people. Suf disturbed, well, everyone lol. Wanted to go eat but couldnt decide, like 'Go siglap. Wait wait no, go tm. Eh wtf la, go simpang.' In the end, go home -.-

2006-09-18T16:59:00.000+08:00

share your sorrows.

Booring monday, end of year's coming and i'm still not studying hard. Sec2s were suppose to have a meeting today but all didnt get the message, like wtf. Lunch at siglap mac. Had some rashes thing on my arms and wasnt feeling well so decided not to go bio, or lan with the rest, oh well.

And, i know i have homework but just have no idea what to do exactly lol. Yeah, jonoh. She's gonna scream tomorrow, again.

thanks for helping me feel.

2006-09-16T20:07:00.000+08:00

You've gone away,
you don't feel me in here,
anymore.
The worst is over now,
and we can breath again.
I wanna hold you high,
and steal my pain, away.
There's so much left to learn,
and no one left to fight.
I wanna hold you high,
and steal your pain.

Maths remedial in the morning, actually managed to study so i guess i didnt waste my time afterall. Went straight to marcus's house to take my skates then went down to ecp with him. Seven earsticks in his hole omg? Watched people at cableski, did my favourite little slope again, and this loong flight of stairs. Wonder if there's a type of skater who does slopes and stairs and curbs and stuff, could be fun.

Wasnt long before we met up with ronald, rin, suf, amos and faiz. Suf's bike was partially sprayed green, simplesweet. So from then on, skated. Fell and got a burn, torn right through my pants lol. I left the others at around 5.30, parents.

So i apologize for this monotonous entry. Let's just say it wasnt exactly a happy or pleasant day for me. More of on the falling side if you know what i mean. Anyway, not to spread any sadness to anyone, i'll end here. Take care all.

2006-09-16T02:19:00.000+08:00

2006-09-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

Okay, so the last two posts weren't exactly entries for a day, big deal.

Did volleyball on the field for morning, bored.
Polished boots in class, tried to anyway, failed as usual lol.

So, had orals after school. As expected, i screwd chinese up. Tan bee bee gave me that bee-bee look and i was stunned wtf. Went bio for about half hour, then left for english oral, did quite well i guess. Mrs Vasu was friendly.

And so, np. Been waiting for a week already. Took the sec2s for a short drill session, attendance was bad. Taught them more on hormats, okay wtf, saluting. Anyway, neighbourhood watch presentation by mas and clarence, well done. Drilled a little again. Then had like, master parade? GOT SERGEANT RANK, silver td and 2nd class drill. Short debrief for ncos after that, ticked off by CIs again. Went for dinner at siglap mac. Home, maths remedial tomorrow which idonthavetogobutwantto. Hey, i will study.

evanescence = <3

2006-09-14T23:03:00.000+08:00

2006-09-13T22:54:00.000+08:00

So I bleed.
I bleed.
And I bleed.
I breathe, no, bleed.
I bleed.
And I breathe.
I breathe.
I breathe.
I breathe.
No more.

2006-09-13T21:16:00.000+08:00

cant find yourself.
cant find yourself?

2006-09-13T20:25:00.000+08:00

left with nothing but a flame.

school, didnt pay attention, fooled a little in class.
art, did my layout with the international-gay-colour scheme, purpur.
went home alone, i think i'm cursed a loner.

cursed with a blessing.

with nothing but a flame left.

2006-09-12T19:19:00.000+08:00

If i gave you the truth, would it keep you from dying?

Time passed quite quickly cuz we played a fool at the back so it wasnt as bad as an average tuesday. Did riddles and such with harry and bert, typical bored-in-class remedy. Results back, dont wanna talk about it, anger stirs as i do. Met rin after class, he straight away blurted out 'GO DRAW TEH STREET FIGHTERZ SCENE'.

So we took a marker from hoori, wonder where it is now LOL. Went to my class and drew the street fighter gameplay screen life-sized on the board, as we've done before. Posed and realised that lighting wasnt good so we just left the drawing there without a photo. Lets do it again rin lol.

Art; jonoh gave us homework? like wtf. Went home straight after that, first time played dota with actual people, harry and amos omg. My brother doesnt count cuz hes weird lol. Quite fun, but it lasted for an hour+ wtfwastetime. So i play dota to kill time, that doesnt mean i'll talk them geeky dota-talk from now onwards cuz thats just, pure lame. Msn's back on whoa.

2006-09-11T22:16:00.000+08:00

if only the mind's an open diary, theyd just read, know, go.

hmm, ran out of excuses to convince myself that theres actually something to live for.

Well hey, this is my blog. I'm sorta allowed to hate the world here so dont say im being -insert emotion here- >.>

2006-09-11T19:27:00.000+08:00

Msn's down so i'm just bored now. Lol, my parents can go die now. Just came home start nagging and bitching already. Seriously, all i need from them is my money and stuff, other than that, they can go fuck off.
Ahh nvm, shall not let them spoil my semi-neutral mood now. Anyway, i'm just waiting for dinner and msn to be back on. Someone tell me when its working again?

2006-09-10T16:58:00.000+08:00

Okaaaaaay wtf, back from atc. Just like suf i wont blog much about this since almost all camps are the same lol. Fun but boring yet exciting and tiring. My group had no other bds cuz amos and priscilla and athirah didnt come lol. Only person i knew before this was khairul from bedok town; crazy slacking git whos like hardgay lolol. Alright, so fun being the atf, high rope elements. Quite cool cuz the obstacles are like two or three storeys in the air. Cant wait for next year's full day of atf for ncos, doing the other structures, longest flyingfox in s'pore wtflol. Kayaking too, we've just GOT to do it again next time. Other than that, lazy type lol.

Soooo, we're all damn tired. I should be in bed right now instead of blogging lol. No way i'll stay awake in khor's class tmr. Or Geog. Or bio.

and and, a little message i'd pass to some people, let's just say you know who you are.
When you think of your past and remember that day, just think of the choices that sent you this way. Try to comprehend how the pieces fit in, realizing the enigma as the shadows wear thin.

2006-09-08T10:39:00.000+08:00

Ugh, woke up with a splitting headache, thanks alot once again. Radioblogclub's being a bitch, want to change song but the site's still under maintenance or something _|_-.- Fuck, i'm still not done packing, and it already looks like it ate chinkwee. This whole term's wasted. Okay, now what. Just hope i dont snap at someone there.

and i go now.

2006-09-08T00:03:00.000+08:00

alright, you can go fuck off now.
now that i think about it, yeah.
so go on, die already.